Alright, now I am sure I am not the only mother who goes through this. Every time it gets close to having another baby, I get all weepy and feel so sad. Now here is why: I get induced with my babies so I can schedule when my parents come and others etc, that and I can plan so much more. Anyway, usually the night before I go in, I go into my youngest child's room and take them out of the crib and rock them and hold them all the while quietly weeping. This is the last time they will be my baby. (Bawling even as I type this.) I rock them and brush their hair and kiss them and just hold them. I don't know why this is so hard for me (so much for the makeup I actually bothered to put on this morning). So that's that. It is a struggle for me not to feel guilty for taking away the title of "baby of the family" from my children. I am always afraid that I will have a hard time dividing my love equally. I know this seems odd, but this is primarily the reason I don't foresee me having any more children after this baby girl comes into our home.
Well on that note. I finished this layout yesterday and had a hard time not crying. Look at this boy. He is just beautiful. He is so loving and loves to cuddle with me. I mean willingly, with absolutely no coaxing from his mom. Soon he will no longer be the baby and that is always a struggle...
